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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

felicity

i had an extremely fantastic time just now, although i was just hanging out at the airport and eating seafood at simei..haha. it was super. I FINALLY GOT TO SEE CHARLES AGAIN after so long!!! my god, when i got the msg from the cute but stupid adrena during gp lesson today, i nearly jumped outta my seat. i was, say, hysterical? haha. i was absolutely delighted and thrilled!! smiles...

CHARLES>> WE MISSED YU SOOO MUCH!!!!

the last time we saw him was at the airport when we sent him off to melbourne 4months ago. it sure was a disconsolate and joyless moment then, and everyone was saying goodbyes and trying to smile as we held the tears back.but when he was finally going to leave,i think everyone just couldnt control their tears.even charles(who wants to be the epitome of macho-ism), the CHARLES who never cried, teared as he was about to pass the departure gates. i remember all of us still standing there even after he had gone out of sight 5 minutes later, speechless as we suffered the final blow that reality threw in our face. the fact that charles had indeed left and that we wont see him again(at least not anytime soon), before degenerating into a pile of sobs and tears.. it sure was a sight to behold..a mass crying session. haha.even i needed a couple of kleenex.

on the contrary, today we were amazingly happy, especially after we found out that charles was coming back to our little island for a week or two. i mean, we were elated and so energized that we were like a couple of hyperactive kids who'd taken drugs prancing aroung the arrival hall. haha. yes, all five of us - adibah,siti, chinfu,adrena and i. its was really ecstacy.when we met we just hugged and were making so much noise we started to draw attention and weird glares from the other people at the airport.jumping and squealing like a bunch of baby chimpanzees in an urban zoo. but i mean we cant help it, can we.after all, we havent met for the longest time,let alone have a great friend come back to visit us.

so while we were snapping a few narcisistic shots of ourselves quite unabashedly in front of all the glaring eyes, charles called .siti screamed and everyone broke into a symphony of "oohs and "ahhs and ""i want to talk to hims and admist all the scrambling to grab the phone and yelling "imiss yu!!, i realised that EVERYONE else were staring at us.. and adibah said ""its like we're behaving as if no one's here, but who cares!"or something of that sort. i mean.for a moment i was ashamed for being such a boisterous shithead,but after she said that, i couldnt care less and reverted back to usual pile of noisy flesh and exagerated arm-flailing actions. its not like we ever cared about how other people saw us in the past anyway.

after he hung up the phone, we stood by the glass pane and stared and squinted past it, scrutinising every single soul that came out from the corner of belt16 to see if it was charles. siti mistook a cleaner for charles(which was spastic,as usual), while the rest of us nearly died of anticipation. we fidgeted as we made subtle utterances in our excitement (what a difference eh?) and when we finally saw him(in his triple layer outfit - all variations of white), the 5 of us erupted into another frenzy.when he finally walked past those glass doors siti and adibah rushed to him and hugged him,while chinfu remarked "eh yur hair very ugly la"". haha. it was funny..and oh. he was with rosna btw(his mom).when it came to me, we did our usual little handshake and smiled, both knowing that the happiness to see each other was mutual..immediately after we burst out into question after question,all thrown at him like a firing squad.although it was a bit over-the-tops, i found what felicity was.

the great bliss and happiness one would experience when with the closest people to him. especially for me since i havent seen them all for such a long time, felicity. it really was high. i mean, just standing there and talking, catching up and crapping around..it really was a moment i would like to keep forever. i could never have felt happier.serious..it was such a stark contrast to the feelings i experience in mj.yes i laugh and enjoy myself around the company of all my new-found friends.but somehow, it aint the same and i felt this elation for the first time in a long time. man, it was such a kodak moment, so yeah, we took a couple more shots.

we headed back to modena(charles' place) after that and dumped his luggage there before leaving to eat somewhere across the street in simei. oh ya, his sister kept harping about how i was so cute, it was kinda freaky and alarming , cuz she did say she was becoming paedophile(like huikoon). haha. am i even that young for her to be a paedophile? well. whatever it was it sure was a nice and ego-boosting compliment although yes, it really did freak me out a little. but heck, she's not gonna rape me or anything.and she knows mr norman chua and some other teacher in mj (her church friends, apparently) and she said she'd ask them to stalk me for her. i bet she was joking, otherwise i'd never step into charles' little 3rd floor condo apartment again.haha

supper was a great way to catch up cuz that was exactly what we did. just sitting around and crapping and eating crabs.sharing all the anecdotes and laughter once again like how we used to in our siglap days. yeah, i've never really realised how much i miss siglap until today,when i was surrounded by all my pals. the memories and insanely wild buffoonery we had in the four amazing years that we were friends came rushing back. i guess we relived those memories in the 1hr odd we spent at supper. and charles, being the lame idiot he is entertained the group as he interjected a couple of not-so-funny jokes and anecdotes here and there.haha. we all still love him despite his extremely cold jokes(some are funny though-i give him credit for that) that never fails to make us go ""eh pai seh sia!!"" to make him feel embarrassed. i guess that's the siglap experience we shared and cherish, and i will definitely keep them for a very long time.

anyway we left the place around 1230 i think and all cabbed home,while reminiscing the freshly created memories.i was smiling all the way home man. i promise i shall try to devote all my time this week to charles and the gang (including ervia,who couldnt make it today, both jiaxin and daniel, who unfortunately were uninformed about charles' return and shahidah,who being the blur sotong she is probably forgot.haha) before charles leaves to return to melbourne again.man i cant wait till dinner tonight when i meet the rest! smiles. i love yu guys man!!

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