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Thursday, October 05, 2006

ERROR ON PAGE

something screwed up my blog so that when yu click an icon on the side the page doesnt turn.
instead yu see an ERROR ON PAGE at the bottom
well, just refresh and click again alright?it'll work the second time :D
sorry for the trouble in the meantime, as i try, with what pathetic prowress i have regarding IT-ish things, whats wrong with this blog of mine.
i cant wait for the A's to end.math is killing me!!!!!

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

PHOTO THERAPHY!!!

okay the last post was quite personal, so i decided to share some laughs with all of yu!

with the school giving out this massload of unwanted EXPLOSION magazines to all of us, which only called out desperately to be used in some other way since no one was reading it, and as they were chucked rather unceremoniously all over the classroom.

so i decided that it was an opportunity to make use my creative talents, to see what kinda aesthetic art i could come up with, whilst killing time during my break.

the end result was, well, see for yurself!haha..



so with this magazine as my template, many varying degrees of form and fugliness arose.






this was inspired by zhu pa jie!

hahaha! i was laughing so hard when i saw the end result!

next was a glamour shot, features enhanced and all.

chio? *barfs*

there's a beauty mole along with big eyes, snufflepagus-esque lashes,thick full lips and a more defined nose!

erm.. not my kind though :P

then there's this disgusting bitchshit here.i dont know what its supposed to be.. just an aggregation of grossness? yu decide.

well since twohill's a freak, he so deserves to be here!haha. this one by ryu, btw :D

lizard man/woman! huikoon will likeit alot right!

and lastly the not-so-jovial clown.


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thing is yu see, once yu start drawing yu cant stop, so the today paper was whipped out and more people got disfigured! i cant help it, its so amusing to see these people ugly!!!

here're some samples!

here's andy pudgy-bitch lau for yu!

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and seung ho-li(product designer for samsung) morphed into new skin.


so hip right? not half as boring as his before look,heh

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a feature on carrie chong then caught my eye and i tried to give her the denise keller look!


marvel at how celebrities can look ugly!haha!

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and last of all..


an innocent OTO adverton massage chairs turned gruesome!


pardon the organs.

i was just tryna add some difference to this compared to the other works.hahaha..

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and a parting shot that ties in with the whole A level mood - EINSTEIN!


before at 65.

 after looking 20 years younger. the wonders of plastic surgery..haha

alright thats all for now, other pictures another time! :D



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relationships

of late i've taken to thoughts that are pretty much confined to myself (and a personal journal)
and these reflections and soul-searching was pretty much sparked off by the couples all around me, including the less-than-cheery breakups :(

to begin, one couple just celebrated their 3rd year together, and being close to one of them (and having hung out with them just days before their anniversary), i was completely jealous seeing how they treated each other so sweetly.

the little whispers in the ear
the snug,reassuring hand-holding
the comforting cuddles and
the quiet yet heartwarming gazes


i know thats just on the surface and that with every relationship comes its fair shares of ups and downs. but 3years is a long time, and the fact that things can still be saccharine as is is truly worth envy.

and i was.hell yes i was so envious.

another pair*, this time both i can say im rather close to, just had their first month pass a couple days ago.and it reminded me so much of how things were many months back -- romantic,fervent,felicitious.

i was looking at their neoprints and i felt so happy for them, yet at the same time, i questioned if i was looking at missing puzzle pieces of my own relationship? (not literally the pictures,of course.we take So many photos!)

he* said to me just now when we were msging online,that he "want[ed] ___ and i to remain romantically attached."

that line struck a chord. that was what i wanted and somewhere along the way things didnt really work out as i envisioned.

i think through the months i lost sight of what i really wanted in a relationship, how to work for it, and to keep it hunky dory like i wanted it to be.

dont get me wrong, i still do love yu.but somehow things have changed.its like we're an old couple who've forgotten how to appreciate one another.

to be patient, to give in, and tolerate.
to understand,reassure, and sacrifice.
to love and be loved in return.

i think we forgot all that,given how things have been.

our actions have been so grossly incongruous with what both of us were seeking, yet ironically we were wondering why things turned out the way it did.

but that all said, im not losing the hope that we can turn that around and make better the status quo, but given this trying period with 29days to the A's its gonna be tough, yet defintely possible.this time im sure :D

i want things to work, cus thats what we wanted in the first place wasnt it? here's towards the 18th okay honey? :D n im sorry for the things i've done, i do love yu so, which is why this entry even exists. love yu so much dear *hug*

and to the two couples, whom i know read this blog..

yu guys inspire me, and just by loving yur partner the way yu do tells me there's hope and that there's always a rainbow after the rain :D thanks!


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