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::zbaf in words::
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Thursday, September 14, 2006

the funny thing about math is how it can make me feel a whole spectrum of emotions. anxiety, then total delirium =)

last night i didnt sleep well cus i was feeling this ridiculous nervous attack i dont usually feel for math papers. and when i finally did get a peace of mind and catch some sleep, i had this horrible horrible dream..

i woke up at 3pm -completely missing my morning lit paper (ahh!!)- an hour after math paper started!! fuck of course i panicked n when i finally got to school i saw like, 2 rows of tables in front of the flagpoles taking the exams, for all the latecomers!haha

and i head to outside the general office where the security guards sit, which had canteen tables arranged in rows for other students. and i saw the people in my "special math class" sitting there attempting the paper already.

(a little context here: because math students like me are pathetically lousy in arithmetic and are probablytailored for greater things than numbers, the math dept in mj has this special class in the container classrooms for tutors to teach us math-made-easy while the rest of the 700plus students are having lectures in the LTs.cool eh?haha)

ah how weird can dreams get? very, im thinking, judging by the one i just had last night.heh.

anyway i didnt miss my paper, n lit was horrible today, i didnt study (sorry ms k!).. but that doesnt matter cus im too overwhelmed by the math paper! for the first time in 2 years, i actually think i have a shot of breaking past the single digit boundary!!!hahaha! yu know what the fuck that means? it means there's hope for me!haha

since i stepped into mj i havent passed a single freaking math test! and im always hovering below the 10-digit mark! i got 3 for midyears last year, 5 for block tests in march n 6.5 for midyears 2mths ago.and when i finally could pass a math test this year my phone had to ring in lecture, and tadaa!ZERO!haha.

but im quite positive today's paper will change all that =) so for all those out there who hate math as much as me (im sure there are falot), dont fret. miracles do happen =)

on a totally different tangent, ryu was making me laugh so hard just now when he sent me these little voice clips that are so terribly amusing. its like, he records his voice and sends it over, and i click play i hear him say "hi fabian tan!" and "yo fabian shao ye" and singing along to stupid busted songs, and also the college anthem when i requested.haha!

it was good up until he started impersonating FCW, which was quasi-amusing, quasi-freaky. ryu yu very cute la, but stop recording yur own voice and being narcissistic listening to them over and over!haha. anyway people, go visit ryu's clog okay!

and on singapore idol. i voted thrice for hady just now cus only the best has fans even in people who have no time for reality competitions (read:A level students). and also cus im rooting for the siglapian right!haha.

anyway, when the annoying twohill finally got out last week there was this freaking cryfest on national television. wth. all the minahs and stupid girls cry cry CRY FOR WHAT!
or yur father die ah? mother kena breast cancer is it?!

just some poseur-i-can-sing-in-pitch-and flip-my-hair-but-aint-fantastic contestant got booted out, so what? cry like as if yu lost yur fake von-dutch wallet + 5million neoprints like that. yeuch.

*sob sob* he knows he can sing and i believe he will continue doing what he loves.. *tears*

omfg i wanna puke already.stfu la okay? *barfs*

and another random. thanks dear for staying over yest to help me with math =) it made the biggest difference! if i really break the single-digit barrier i'll do 10 things off yur list for yu k?haha.

alright, back to the mugathon already!there's stats on monday!

and last episode of jin sanshun for me :( omg im like such an aunty keep watching korean dramas (first da changjin, and now jin sanshun) but its okay, the shows are worth watching! sanshun is like the cutest woman alive la!

right.. i was kidding.haha.
cute in a gross manner la. the way she dances is DISGUSTING!the way she sings makes yu feel like tearing yur ears out!the way she acts demure and shy makes yur hair stand!haha.
she's so unglam, so crude, so violent yu're like grossed out.

but yet on the other hand she's this frail emotional 30yr old woman who's been thru alot, endured emotional turmoil and braved many storms, and thats what endears me to her!haha. so channel u at 10! (:

i'll continue mugging after 11, and yes i promise yu andrea i'll marathon jin sanshun with yu when yu're back from aussie alright?heh

and yeah, i wanna go cut mohawk after prelims. comments? =)

k toodles people! ki o tsukete! and listen to aguilera's new album. love it!

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