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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

reminisces

thats what yu get when yu have a macbook as cool as stef's =)
we laughed so hard, so loud, so uncontrollably that people started staring!

phototheraphy aside..

i've always believed that the true test of the friendships i have is after i graduate, or when i actually have to constantly make effort to meetup and catchup, and not take for granted that yu know, hey, i'll see them in school anyway.

thru my years i've seen many relationships i've had with others prosper, as well as diminish to distance to become mere acquaintances. but there's this particular group, the people whom i've known the longest, and each one of them i hold dear to my heart. this one's for yu, yu guys =)

the past few days have been of nostalgia and things past, having met up with these oldest friends i've had since psch.as always, dinner conversations will inevitably involve the days bavck in mbs band- jovial, carefree,simple (not forgetting fat and chubby!haha). those days were seriosuly, god, i dont know, perfect. it was some sorta utopia and reminiscing the time we spent "growing up" together only brought back smiles. serious =)

but what i really love about these angels, is not that conversation can be so effortless, or that i feel so at home and comfortable around them.

thing is, our perceptions of each other are so ingrained that not even the most stupefying, shocking, unexpected truth that we newly discover about another person will even change the friendship in any way. i mean, so what if my habits have changed, or that i fucking smoke or smth.does it matter?

no it doesnt. after ten years of friendship, these little things dont matter anymore. these are the people who dont judge me, but instead, accept me for who i am. these are the people i would trust my life with, and not feel that twitchy insecurity that they might do smth untoward to me. now man thats a friendship i cant live without.

there're no inhibitions when it comes to confiding in them smth that i would think thrice and ponder a dozen times over before even telling my friends in college. i know that no matter what happens they wont look at me thru different lenses,and the perception of me remains the same. =)

these are the friends that have remained true,and who've made such a great difference in my life, people that have started the mould for me to become who i am today.the people i can turn to,time regardless, for anything, and i know i wouldnt be disappointed. people who truly care,who truly love yu, and who truly are sincere about the friendship.

and as stef said, if this was never mentioned, i wouldnt have even realised how close they are to me. the ones who really know yur famiy, been to yur place, the few whom yu'd have hardly any secrets kept from them. there's no pretence, no polite dinners, no painful discussions. man i do love yu guys so much.

over the past few days i've been talking to stef quite alot, and we just hit it off.even though the last proper conversation we had was months ago at the very least. i mean, man, we were on the same page, had the same frequency, and i could almost fill in the blanks and complete her sentences.

perhaps its because we've shared similar experiences, and that our personailties are more similar.anyhow thanks alot stef,for reminding me of that boy i once knew so well, and whom i nearly lost in the complexity if everything around me right now. we've got to make up for lost time alright?and as yu said, after my As.thanks sweets.

as for cam.here's one to yu, for always being there for me, and for always standing on my side no matter what happened. how our conversations can stretch over hours and how yu can make me feel so much better with what yu say is smth i wouldnt replace man.to my nonsensical,logical,long-winded yet to the point sis,thank yu =)

and by far i've drifted the most from min, who've weathered more storms than i would've imagined.sorry for not being there as i should've been, and for being too busy to even know what was going on in yur life. nonetheless, things will change, as soon as my exams are out, after all, we've seen thru nearly a decade in this friendship right? smiles. takegoodcare and as for that story?i wanna hear it. as for the friendship, thanks dear =)

ah, im feeling nostalgia, euphoria, and whatever other positve emotions one can pssibly feel all at once.the past week was really just a gift la. *smile!*

and what i've just said isnt discounting the friendships i have with other people right now. i've got good friends all around, from siglap,meridian, where ever.. but its just that there're still inhibitions, hesitations, insecurities when yu're around people yu know but dont know that well. especially or someone who's been betrayed and backstabbed, trust just isnt a free membership la..

but lets no go there today, im still in a happy mood, and do have time for some photos.haha. here's to the 4 of us! love.

dinner at newyorknewyork on tuesday =)

and we got the comfy seats!

stef and i =)

in the mbs band room =) (pity min had work).

stef and i are wearing our primary sch band tee, which STILL FREAKING FITS! how cool is that?im not fat!haha

tell me, where to find 50cent wanton mee!

this dude's been outside the general office since i remember! miss yu!haha.

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