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Monday, April 09, 2007

moved!

moved, an extremely long time ago.

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

IM BACK!!!

okay, so i havent blogged in ages, but as i always say, its never to late to make up for what you did/not do.

anyway, life's been a pretty busy lately, what with shuttling between work,band practices, and meeting sarah. i havent met my friends as i have promised yet - so much for all the talk about "i end my exams on the 23rd!lets meet up after that!". someone slap me please (okay cam, i know you will,haha) - but i will, promise, as soon my my schedule lightens up (:

but in any case, just the other day my mom was laughing at me, cause i woke up late for work and literally ran out of the house without showering or waxing my hair,when on normal school days if i wake up late, i just take my time and go to school around 9/10 instead (looking and smelling normal), or go back to sleep and skip school altogether.haha.

but seriously, im feeling so much more tired now than i was taking the exams, and that's just wrong for all the right reasons. i mean, post-Alevels means relaxing and hanging out with friends and sleeping late and slacking around. yet i wake up at 4am so i can start work at 530 in the airport if i work the first shift. dude, i need a new job, NOW.haha.

in any case though, as long as the money rolls in, i guess i just gotta suck it alll up and work my ass off cause i need that money badly.period. so to all my friends, im sorry i havent had time, but i only enlist in april,so there's alot of fabian to go around yeah? dont worry (: and sarah, i'll find time,even if its 2-3 hours a day or if im dead tired (:

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anyway prom yesterday was a rather huge letdown,cause the food was nothing like the ethereal standard boasted of when publicity for prom started some months back. the emcee was a disaster in himself,unable to fill gaps and letting hype and energy die within seconds,so in the end no one bothered about what was happening on stage anymore and just went about their own business = cam-whoring.haha.

of course, there was also a share of those who, in their attempt to look pretty, came looking worse than when they were donning school uniform without make up. hello? blue eyeshadow with lurid pink blusher are the makings of RUHUA,not prom queen.
worse still, some opted for the smoky eye effect, which OBVIOUSLY went awry. i think the make up artist punched you in the eyes for being too ugly.haha, cause some really did look ugly. and some dresses.aiyo. i thought they were meant to flatter a woman's body,not accentuate the lack thereof,fashion police,mj needs you!
then again,there were people who came looking gorgeous and fab,glitzy glamour and all. seriously,it was like seeing your plain-jane schoolmates and i-dont-care-how-i-look guy-next-doors undergo a metamorphosis from geek to sleek.and well, the photos will speak for themselves (: of course, my girlfriend looked the best in her rust-coloured satin gown(: so wait and see!

basically that was the highlight of noche arc en ciel - the phototaking and fashion commentary - cause really the rest of the night was really just a disappointment. the food was lousy, some hai tien lo somemore. gah,i get better food at newton and chomp chomp la please. and a freaking 95bucks? really, every dish that comes out just screams

RIP-OFF! RIP-OFF!

AND YOU"RE THE SUCKER WHO PAID 95BUCKS FOR IT! HAHAHA!

but i thought my performance didnt go too bad,so that's one plus point for me (except for the beginning,i was really nervous can.i think mus was too.haha!) but all in all,whats happened happened so i'll just cherish the memories of my college prom,even if its for all the wrong reasons.

alright i've babbled enough, shall upload the photos when i come back from japan next week! (im leaving tonight(: ) bye!

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Thursday, October 05, 2006

ERROR ON PAGE

something screwed up my blog so that when yu click an icon on the side the page doesnt turn.
instead yu see an ERROR ON PAGE at the bottom
well, just refresh and click again alright?it'll work the second time :D
sorry for the trouble in the meantime, as i try, with what pathetic prowress i have regarding IT-ish things, whats wrong with this blog of mine.
i cant wait for the A's to end.math is killing me!!!!!

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

PHOTO THERAPHY!!!

okay the last post was quite personal, so i decided to share some laughs with all of yu!

with the school giving out this massload of unwanted EXPLOSION magazines to all of us, which only called out desperately to be used in some other way since no one was reading it, and as they were chucked rather unceremoniously all over the classroom.

so i decided that it was an opportunity to make use my creative talents, to see what kinda aesthetic art i could come up with, whilst killing time during my break.

the end result was, well, see for yurself!haha..



so with this magazine as my template, many varying degrees of form and fugliness arose.






this was inspired by zhu pa jie!

hahaha! i was laughing so hard when i saw the end result!

next was a glamour shot, features enhanced and all.

chio? *barfs*

there's a beauty mole along with big eyes, snufflepagus-esque lashes,thick full lips and a more defined nose!

erm.. not my kind though :P

then there's this disgusting bitchshit here.i dont know what its supposed to be.. just an aggregation of grossness? yu decide.

well since twohill's a freak, he so deserves to be here!haha. this one by ryu, btw :D

lizard man/woman! huikoon will likeit alot right!

and lastly the not-so-jovial clown.


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thing is yu see, once yu start drawing yu cant stop, so the today paper was whipped out and more people got disfigured! i cant help it, its so amusing to see these people ugly!!!

here're some samples!

here's andy pudgy-bitch lau for yu!

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and seung ho-li(product designer for samsung) morphed into new skin.


so hip right? not half as boring as his before look,heh

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a feature on carrie chong then caught my eye and i tried to give her the denise keller look!


marvel at how celebrities can look ugly!haha!

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and last of all..


an innocent OTO adverton massage chairs turned gruesome!


pardon the organs.

i was just tryna add some difference to this compared to the other works.hahaha..

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and a parting shot that ties in with the whole A level mood - EINSTEIN!


before at 65.

 after looking 20 years younger. the wonders of plastic surgery..haha

alright thats all for now, other pictures another time! :D



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relationships

of late i've taken to thoughts that are pretty much confined to myself (and a personal journal)
and these reflections and soul-searching was pretty much sparked off by the couples all around me, including the less-than-cheery breakups :(

to begin, one couple just celebrated their 3rd year together, and being close to one of them (and having hung out with them just days before their anniversary), i was completely jealous seeing how they treated each other so sweetly.

the little whispers in the ear
the snug,reassuring hand-holding
the comforting cuddles and
the quiet yet heartwarming gazes


i know thats just on the surface and that with every relationship comes its fair shares of ups and downs. but 3years is a long time, and the fact that things can still be saccharine as is is truly worth envy.

and i was.hell yes i was so envious.

another pair*, this time both i can say im rather close to, just had their first month pass a couple days ago.and it reminded me so much of how things were many months back -- romantic,fervent,felicitious.

i was looking at their neoprints and i felt so happy for them, yet at the same time, i questioned if i was looking at missing puzzle pieces of my own relationship? (not literally the pictures,of course.we take So many photos!)

he* said to me just now when we were msging online,that he "want[ed] ___ and i to remain romantically attached."

that line struck a chord. that was what i wanted and somewhere along the way things didnt really work out as i envisioned.

i think through the months i lost sight of what i really wanted in a relationship, how to work for it, and to keep it hunky dory like i wanted it to be.

dont get me wrong, i still do love yu.but somehow things have changed.its like we're an old couple who've forgotten how to appreciate one another.

to be patient, to give in, and tolerate.
to understand,reassure, and sacrifice.
to love and be loved in return.

i think we forgot all that,given how things have been.

our actions have been so grossly incongruous with what both of us were seeking, yet ironically we were wondering why things turned out the way it did.

but that all said, im not losing the hope that we can turn that around and make better the status quo, but given this trying period with 29days to the A's its gonna be tough, yet defintely possible.this time im sure :D

i want things to work, cus thats what we wanted in the first place wasnt it? here's towards the 18th okay honey? :D n im sorry for the things i've done, i do love yu so, which is why this entry even exists. love yu so much dear *hug*

and to the two couples, whom i know read this blog..

yu guys inspire me, and just by loving yur partner the way yu do tells me there's hope and that there's always a rainbow after the rain :D thanks!


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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

DAMNIT

what's screwed up is that i cant find my freaking passport in my own fucking home.

and now i cant register for the japan trip cus i cant get my documents in order for the administrative end to clear.wth.

damnit i hate my life and screw yu.

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

update on muzzie's birthday

dinner at bugis then pool :D simple fare with LOADS of fun.

hope yu had a happy birthday mus!:D


thats the end of the picturelogue! :D

and those who end earlier than me for prelims, which is EVERYONE, yay! yu can start studying for yur Alevels one to two days more than me! (quote:justin) hahaha!

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

ishiki no nagare

some people just need to get creative dont yu think?

when i saw pseudonyms like zbag zoif znam, i laughed.haha. i didnt know i was some trendsetter!yay! *egoboost*

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anyway jun makes the most fanfuckingtastic truffles.haha, yijun the pattisier(i learnt this word from jin ssanshun,haha!)doesnt disappoint once again!

with a chunky ball of orgasmic chocolate centre cased within a crispy (i think its puffed rice?) shell thats so subtly salted. its so insanely good yu'll have to ask jun to make some for yu too! now those truffles are really the keys to a woman!haha.

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anyway i miss my saxtion so SO much, both the seniors and juniors. havent played in a band since like, joie de vivre II and god i miss playing the sax so much!

so here's a quick shoutout!

to the nsfs: lets see if sunday we can meet alrighty!the old man's birthday is coming and we havent met in a long time too(not since armstrong's concert).thanks for the plan, tim!

to the giafsncting hippo: lalala.im handing my form in tmr, i guess like what yu said this will be the only chance i have of home-staying,seeing fuku again!haha.nagoya!

to jun: one more gothic paper and yu're free!and since yu end prelims a day earlier than me,make me more truffles!haha

to slowphone: we shall go study at the airport together sometime,since we're always there but never studying together.haha. and i looked thru the old photos like yu asked and NO!yu're still the same, dont worry *hint :P

to SOME SILLY COCONUT ala armstrong: yes yu are a silly coconut for smiling like an idiot to yurself mid-lecture.anyway, 137 is falot of money for dietary supplements from cold storage. yu're one mad cat budak.haha

to chrissypoo: aiyo wanna meet up also never meet up for so long. hope things are going great in uni,with mr clinique-happy ndu guy and with the rest!and thanks for the concern :D

to the jen*,xXx,jkong,ling,isa&cliff:please study hard for promos and we'll meet up to go jalan after that,as jen* suggested okay?dinner at drive6 on fridays again!haha

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and yu know what? i revised my gothic lit yesterday and woke up early this morning to read some more lit.

and after trudging to school at 730 when i totally forgot there wasnt morning assembly at 735, today jo told me that IT IS NOT GOTHIC PAPER TODAY, its paper8 instead!

haha like wth la ghreuiogairiek i lugged 5novels in my bag okay?

but luckily paper 8 is unseen,so it wasnt that bad :P

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thanks emsie for the msg :D what yu said made sense, and whatever it is, no one should blame anyone else yeah? smiles.

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n it was zhengyi's birthday last friday,along with yosua's so here's to a BIG 18th righteous! hope yu liked the surprise :D


and here's the birthday kiss pok had to give him! c'mon la cranberrae dont act shy okay? we all know yu do more than just kiss him when yu think no one's looking,haha.

see how zhengyi nods(in approval) after he gets a kiss and how his gf runs away after that?haha, its so cute.

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last of all, its muslim's birthday today so HAPPY 19th dude.

thanks for everything the past yearhalf, it wouldnt have been the same without yu as our beacon president.haha.

by the time yu see this yu'd be smiling at the surprise planned already so best wishes alright bro? takecare and have a fucking whacked out time :D

here're last year's birthday pics. the sc shot, and the one in the toilet, with sanitary pads as peace offerings.haha
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